The decisions will not get any easier

Leaving Pennsylvania is not going to be easy. I thought it would be when first came here to go to college. I would say that I'm a more introverted, solitary person, so I didn't expect to make a ton of friends and have deep rooted connections here. It is nice to be wrong sometimes. It happens. I can admit when I'm wrong. I am also not someone who has, in the past, made strong female friendships. Most of my longest friendships were with guys. It's very interesting that I've grown so close to so many girls in my time here. There is one in particular who has been my support system in many ways. She has seen me at some of the lowest points of my life and has not left my side. That alone is cause for accolades. I will also admit that I love this girl with every ounce of me. I would do anything for her, as she would for me. For a short time, I thought I might consider staying on the East Coast, but I know that my heart and my home is in Minnesota, so I will return there soon. I only wish this decision didn't hurt as much as it does. Opportunity could be greater here. I'm certain that the money would be better, too. Those things do not matter much to me. I'm not cut out for big city life or the fast pace here. I've adjusted, but I want to readjust to what I know. I need to be home. I will be losing people with the distance between, but I knew from the start that this was a temporary thing. An experience, if you will. I don't know what the future holds, but those here who love me will hopefully keep me in their hearts. I know I will. Besides, planes are a fast mode of travel.